samxixamxbaby

After School
its was pretty much a mutual decision.so it's over as i knew it would be.yet i still put myself to be that vunerable and miguel is one of the few people where im like it's okay.even though i've been screwed by him a number of time's.im just like w.e.im just saying that though all i feel like doing is crying for a bit.im pretty pathetic.But hey there's micheal who i will be more then happy to see now.still got myself in this dead end situation.but im alone.and micheal takes away the loneliness slightly.i really am such a stupid human being.self esteem lowered.yet im still gonna put this smile on and act like everything will always be whatever.

---somewhere around 8--

So im even worse now.I think i want to do something rash haha gimme a day or a week before i check myself into a hospital.my step mom considers me a nuisance.and i really want to say i dont care.but since im under her roof i have to deal with it.i want to say how the hell i got myself stuck in the position.to feel so vulnerable to everything that has been said to me.I keep holding shit.i can't do this anymore.

I wanna say that i need someone.but no one is sincere.no one is there.so im just gonna be sitting here.
listening to deftones-change.